the beautifyers in us

today, but tonight especially, i have felt a surge of happiness.

my heart has been filled.

for no particular reason, even.

you know those people who seem to make everything beautiful?

this would be many of my friends...

and many people i don't know whose blogs i often read, for example.

it's all very fascinating.

I admire their talents and ability to do so,

but you know, I can't do that. I do love beauty and creation, though.

like tonight, I made some seriously delicious minestrone soup.

i would have taken a picture to post on here, but they just never turn out beautiful, like my friends'. (once i made this good tuscan soup and tried to take pretty pictures- no dice)

I have decided I am a

messy beautify-er

and you know what? I like it.

i like my hair a little tousled on purpose (and one time a girl at NHaven even told me my hair was "disheveled" hah!)

my soup doesn't turn out aesthetically pleasing,

I have to look up words like "aesthetic"

i sew white temple skirts with un-even stitches and threads poking out everywhere,

i can't pull off those flower headbands,

i don't grow my own herbs or can anything

(although Jami is going to help me attempt applesauce! yahoo.)

I pick off nail polish anytime it's on my fingernails,

and all of this makes me happy.

I like me.

thinking of my youngest sister lately, I have focused on two words:

faithful

&

perseverance

that's all we all really need to get through trials.

even if those trials turn into life-long trials.

and when I remember those 2 words I really feel true and living

HOPE.

And, that, is beautifulness, my friends.

so for all of you beauties out there reading this:

all you do,

whether it be very aesthetically pleasing to the eye,

messy beautify-ing,

no beautifying whatsoever,

or whatever-

make it beautiful to you.

because when you can be pleased with yourself, even when you want to be doing much more,

you feel happiness.

so just go outside

breathe in the air

glance at the sun, clouds, stars, moon, or trees

and remember

that "any man who hath seen any or the least of these hath seen God moving in his majesty and power"

(Doc&Cov 88:47)

then remember

you're a part of that.

and that, really isn't something you can argue with

...God only makes beautiful things

and now it's midnight and my husband is snoring loudly beside me as i sit in the dark.

but i can only smile.